12 Days

I’m having a strange day.

I awoke at 6:30 this morning, or Gravedigger’s biscuits as it is commonly known, and couldn’t get back to sleep. It was a mixture of light and anxiety about running out of money. The sooner that Star Trek finance-free utopia arrives, the better.

And so I decided to get up and get breakfasted before my dad had even risen from his pit to start his morning routine. Imagine my parent’s surprise when their son, who hadn’t gotten up before midday in about a month, was up and cooking himself bacon and eggs at 7:30 in the morning.

I lasted until about 10:30, about which time the tiredness caught up with me halfway through an episode of The Ricky Gervais Show and I fell asleep until about 13:00. 

Which then meant I had to get lunch and shower later than I’d expected and ultimately didn’t start revision until about 15:00, and even then it didn’t last very long at all.

My motivation is at an all time low.

My polite discussion over dinner concerning my employment status resulted in my mum calling me lazy and demanding I get a job over the summer, not respecting my life view - if I don’t want to do it, I don’t have to do it (clause: unless I really have to do it).

I’ve been consulting an article on good jobs for students for a while now, and after a little digging managed to find a company that hires mystery shoppers to review customer service - the company that used to do it for McDonald’s whilst I worked there.

I thought this was a grand idea - no big commitment to a job, a few quid every now and then, free stuff to boot. Upon exclaiming my enthusiasm for this to my parents, I was quickly silenced by a rebuttal that concluded in shouting and me sarcastically storming off - they were angry for no reason, so I thought I’d step it up too.

If the situation gets dire, I can get another job. The article suggests library work, which is a long shot, but it does sound good. I like books. If not I’ll at least get a library card because I can’t afford books any more.

I think that adequately sums up today’s inactivities.

Oh, and England beat Ukraine and I was mildly pleased.

Stay happy, because I’m having a hard time trying sometimes,

Ben.